To suffer for that which you love is to live. To never suffer and still love but look down on those that do with malice and pity....that is ignorance. Those that suffer know the value of what they suffer for, because they feel it within every part of their soul.

Life will throw you curve balls, but it will also throw you roses. Do not be pessimistic about the thorns. For every bit of happiness must be balanced with a little pain.

It is all worth it to feel love even once in your entire life. I've been blessed with feeling loved four times in my life. Even if it ended horribly, I know at one time they actually loved me, and that's more than I honestly deserve.

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I'm still around. I still check everyday....somewhat...

I dunno....lately I've just not had the spark or care to create. With the holidays creeping up I feel more and more depressed and like I just don't belong in my family at all.

Tonight pretty much opened my eyes to just how right I am in thinking I don't belong.....

My own father called me by my blood mothers name in front of 17 PEOPLE. Now, he corrected himself but the damage was done. All 17 people turned away from me, sadness all over their faces. I was in shock. My own father saw me as that heartless, cruel, conniving, murderous, backstabbing, brainwashing, bitch in front of everyone in my family.

Now, I have done my very best to be the complete opposite of that whore, but I can not change the fact, no matter how hard I try, that I am the spitting image of her.

My whole family is light haired and light eyed....I'm the only member with dark eyes and hair....just like my mother.

I fell to my knees on the front steps in tears. I NEVER hit my knees until I am in my room and even then, I bury my face in my pillow and bawl my eyes out. It was tough enough choking back tears at the dinner table.

I don't fit into my family anymore. The experiences of this year alone fucked that all up. They look down on me, use me as an example of what NOT to do in your life....and they do not believe that I can rise out of the hole I have fallen into no matter how hard I try.

My own Aunt asked me if I was still considering suicide, and that if so, not to try to get sympathy or beg for help in stopping as my life was fucked up and I had no redeeming qualities left to give to society.

.......My own AUNT basically told me to off myself because my life wasn't worth saving..........Do you have ANY IDEA what that can DO to a person???? I was in SHOCK.

I will say however that I am looking forward to someone very dear to me visiting me two weeks from now. He alone gives me a reason to keep trying now...seeing as my family doesn't give two shits anymore it seems.

But yeah, I'll try to get these sketches I have been working on done soon. I have a fantastic sketch of my dragon form now that seriously, has my roommates saying they would NOT want to mess with her XD


Until I decide to update, peace out biotches!

************ART TRADE/REQUEST STATUS: OPEN**********
~At this time I'm open to all art trades and requests, but know that they will be on a first come, first serve basis as I'm not getting paid for them. They might take a little bit to get completed, just know that they WILL get completed in time. I NEVER leave a piece unfinished. They ALL get completed in time. I will go over the rules with each person for each trade/request that I receive. I prefer having one on one communication with other artists, so feel free to reach me on AIM or by email.

AIM: DreamWolfLives

Email: lunar_wolf_69@hotmail.com


***********COMMISSION STATUS: OPEN************
Sketches: $1 USA Dollar

Line art in black ink: $2 USA Dollars

Line Art with Color (Prismacolor Pencils): $3 USA Dollars

Background for computer desktops: $5 USA Dollars

Digitally (including digital shading and background) enhanced art: $10 USA Dollars

Creation of your dream Character: this is a ref sheet like my personal detailed ref except on rare occasions: $15 USA Dollars

Custom Car Decal designs (multiple colors or one straight color): $20 USA Dollars

Tattoo Designs (no color just black ink): $25 USA Dollars {$5.00 deposit}

Tattoo Designs (with color digital or prismacolor pencils): $50 USA Dollars {$10.00 deposit}

** Due to current situations, any commission that is over $20 will have a 20% no refund deposit requirement. I have posted what 20% of each price would be in brackets next to the total price.

***Side Note: Any other type of commission not mentioned is welcomed but may be declined if I feel I can't complete it to my standards. Note me in this case with your idea and I will get back to you.***

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